I received an email last night from Eric, my attorney. My fate is sealed on November 9, my sister's birthday. My mom says this is a sign. I pray she is right. My sister, the most faithful person I know, turns 40 that day. I pray her faith, commitment to the Lord and her belief in me will be with me wholeheartedly when the day arrives. The future of me, my husband, children and whole family will change forever that fateful day.
I knew this day would come and now that it is here, it scares me to death. I wish I could go on everyday as if nothing ever happened, but I can't. This day has haunted me for over a year now and I can't ignore it anymore. I have tried to prepare my children, Tyler and Sydney, for what could happen. They realize that even though we pray and believe in a favorable outcome, the system is messed up and we cannot guarantee what we are hoping for. I know they are scared. Who wouldn't be. Rod and I have tried to help them understand but I still don't understand it myself sometimes. I used to believe in the system and that it worked. Now, I know better.
Collin, Chelsi, and Josi is who I worry about the most. What are they going to think? Who is going to protect them when I'm not here? They will have Rod and he will do whatever it takes to ensure they are taken care of 100%. I'm their mother. They need me. They are little and still so innocent. They ask questions, constantly, and I am here to give them the answers 24 hours a day. There are things that only a mother can do and only certain things a mother knows without question.
I will continue to go about my business each and every day. I will get my kids ready for school, make their lunches, wash their clothes, get them to their ball games. This is my job. This is what I live to do. I will take my courses online for my BS in Elementary and Special Education, even though I may never teach because of this. I will stay on my course in life no matter the obstacles in hopes my life can continue on with the path I have chosen. I will be strong.
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