Life is what you make it

  My life has gone in so many different directions in the last year sometimes I forget which way I am supposed to go.  I know what I have control of and the things I do not, I leave in God's hands. My husband and my children are my life and they depend on me to keep it all together.  I have to believe that everything is going to work out, I will remain here with my family, and life will go on.  I live everyday to the best of my ability because I have to.  My future and the future of my family is unknown.  That is scary.  God never gives us more than we can handle, right? He must really have faith in me and what I still have to do in this life.

 We don't talk about it much, but it's always on my mind; how could it not be.  I know that my family and friends are worried, scared and pray daily that everything will work out.  I cannot thank them enough for remembering me and believing in me.  My heart is full because of your love.  I have too much pride and am too strong-willed to let what is happening to me and to my family get me down.  My family has just as much, if not more, to lose if the outcome is unfavorable. 

So...I hang in there, I put on a happy face and go on as if my life were normal, when in reality, nothing about my situation is normal.  I didn't ask for this, I shouldn't be going through this, but I am.  I cannot change what has happened, I can only prepare for the unknown.  I can pray, pray, then pray some more.  When I feel like all is lost, I look at the faces of my awesome husband, my beautiful children and know that for them, I must be strong.  I'm not worried about me.  I will be okay.  I need to be here for my husband, who WILL go mad with all these kids.  My kids need a mother to protect them, raise them right and teach them about the true evils of this world.  They do exist.  I am living proof.

Life is what you make it....I choose to make it the best I can under circumstances beyond my control.

Wish me luck