I am just over 3 1/2 months into the 6 month portion of my sentencing. With a total of 5 years probation, my life won't be completely normal until that is over. While the 6 months house arrest hasn't been a picnic, it could have been a lot worse. I could have not been here at all right now. I thank God that He has allowed me to continue to be with my family, even with a few restrictions that can sometimes be very unhandy.
Parts of my life have been put on hold. I have been awaiting Fingerprint Clearance which determines whether or not I can continue with my education and eventually teach. Without this clearance, I have to go with Plan B. Plan B hasn't been determined yet, but I have begun to accept the fact that Plan A isn't looking too good right now. I will be okay with Plan B. I have been to hell and back. I will survive this too.
With everything that has happened, I hope that if nothing else, my older children get from this experience that NOTHING is guaranteed. Even bad, horrible, indescribable things happen to good, decent, hard-working people. What you do in the face of adversity is up to you. You can become bitter, hateful and distant or you can choose to become a better person for it. I have chosen to take the high road. I may never understand why this happened to me and many times have wondered what I could have done to deserve this. Truth is, I will never understand. There is evil in this world and I have to remain true to myself, my husband, children and family or the evil wins.
I am blessed to have a family, all of them, for loving me, believing in me and supporting me, however and whenever I've needed them. Thank you for that. Without this support, I may never have made it this far. I love you all.
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